This past week and even today, I have had unrest in my soul that I can’t even put into words. Circumstances and issues just seem to keep flying in my face and there seems to be no rest from them.
I have had many a break down and have gone through a good share of Kleenex. I find myself in a panic. Anxiety builds up. My husband was right when he told me I paralyze myself, because I allow all of the “stuff” to overwhelm me, instead of just moving, even if it means baby-steps.
I need rest. Life just seems to be crushing me and wearing me out. I am in a daily battle just to keep my eyes and heart focused on the Lord. There has to be some light.
Well, there is. God always has a way of bringing me back to Him. I was reading Matthew 11 today, and was reminded in verse 28, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Boy how I needed that. It was a reminder that no matter what happens or doesn’t happen, God is always there.
Are you weary? Are you burdened? Guess who can give you the rest you so desperately need? GOD can and will. He’s waiting.
I’m a conservative mom who is trying to keep up with a household, 2 kids, and finish my PhD. I’ve been so worn down lately I feel like I don’t have any passion left for anything. I’m so tired of being chastized for my religious and political views from university students and professors. I have one professor who has a personal vendetta against me purely because I chose to give a religious analysis to a medieval text. I sympathize with your crushing anxiety.
Thank you Tamara for sharing your heart. It certainly is hard out in the world and we as moms seem to feel alone a lot of the time. I struggle each and every day with doubt and discouragement. I find myself going through a whole range of emotions, and then the Lord nudges me and I find calm. So I hope that when the world wants to beat you up that you remember that God is for you. The university students and professors are just jealous and intimidated. If they didn’t act the way they do, then we would have to question whether we were acting the way we should. Keep it up!